Night Thoughts

tahoe_nightToday’s Lenten poem from Education for Justice is by William F. Bell.

Night Thoughts

It is our emptiness and lowliness that God needs, and not our
plenitude. —Mother Teresa

Somehow by day, no matter what,
I patch myself together whole,
But all my effort can’t offset
The nightly nakedness of soul
When angels in a dark descent
Strip off my integument.

I am a cornered rebel pinched
Between night’s armies and my lack,
And when inside the bedclothes hunched
I feel the force of their attack,
I hardly know what I can do,
Exposed to God at half-past two.

I once believed my being full,
But night thoughts prove that it is not.
Waking scared and miserable,
I scrape the bottom of the pot
And then must bow down and confess
Totality of emptiness.

Kings once ventured, it is said,
To offer gold and frankincense,
But I send nothing from my bed
Except a tattered penitence,
So very little has accrued
From years of doubtful plenitude.

God who tear away my cover,
Oh, pour your Spirit into me
Until my emptiness runs over
With golden superfluity,
And I bow down and offer up
Yourself within my earthen cup.

Source: “Night Thoughts” by William Bell from America Magazine, Vol. 187 No.
18 (12/2/2002).

7 Comments on “Night Thoughts

  1. The unsettled water is what attracts my attention in the photograph. Analogous to the trouble spirit of the poem and my own restless heart that need to be bathed in the light. Thank you.

  2. Pingback: Brokenness’ Blessing: Part 4 – Pastoral/Theological/Philosophical Reflections on the Journey of Faith and the Liturgical Calendar

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